The best way to describe me is as pathologically curious. Also, reality has a very high value for me, and when reading I spend most of my time trying to assess what is real, knowing well that what we can envision, of reality, most of the time is a bleak copy of reality that has been manipulated and reshaped not to threaten our feelings or a version that protects us from harm.
The other way to describe me is as a pathological high-resolution thinker. High-resolution thinking was described by Jordan Petersen as when you drive a car, you think you have full control over the car, and know everything until the car breaks down, and you need to increase resolution and know what actually makes the engine run. The shift in your mind is when your mind goes from low- to high-resolution thinking.
I tend to score fairly high on IQ tests but I always prefer not to mention it as I am not sure what it measures. Last decade, however, I have had my brain in a pizza box, as it becomes increasingly difficult to find arguments that aren't emotionally manipulated and don't heed the rules that compulsory conformity forces upon you. "Nails that stick up, get to taste the hammer", is a Japanese proverb that has been real for me for some thirty years now.
And "tasting the hammer", is the other thing that formed me. I had a lifelong relation to bullying, as of being Immigrant multiple times, but also for being "a nail that sticks up" in a country where people are terrified of conflicts, and conformity is seen as compulsory.
I have no norms, and nothing is "normal" to me! I went to seventeen schools during my upbringing and have lived in at least five countries long enough to conform to local new norms and learn the residing culture.
I am also born naturally bi-lingual but have added languages in all of the four defined ways you can become bi-lingual. What is lesser-known to non-bi-lingual is that every language is a model of viewing and describing the world. An added language adds to your ability to understand and view the world, but it also affects your behaviour at times.
Why I write is a complicated question. I am a private, introverted and true believer that any true leadership is done without being seen or noticed. So I have no real benefit from writing. I think the true answer lies near that: "I miss debating". Writing gives that opportunity to expose your thoughts for a "first contact" with reality. At the same time, writing is an opportunity to create a legacy, where my son can botanise my personality long after I am gone, and maybe find answers that help him in determining his path in life.
What I write about, started with me healing from a decade-long encounter with a psychopathic middle-manager, whereafter my humour all of a sudden restarted and, in surprise, I started writing multilayered cute stories for fun but shifted quickly to "react" to stories that propagated divisive myths in society. Those myths have so far been, "there exists a gender war", "human has race", and "capitalism is an ideology". All these myths create rifts between people that would normally get along well. I'd prefer to go back to writing "cute" stories as there is less violence involved, but despite the violence, I do enjoy the debate, and a public environment to test ideas.
Rewriting is a difficult question. My background, as a systems developer, with a knack for complexities does not normally provide a good background for becoming a writer. It is therefore fair to assume I will learn some of the trade if prolonging writing renders most of my early writing to be of lesser quality than I can produce now. I, also, might have changed the view of some matters making a rewriting not only important but necesary.
I don't rewrite. To manufacture a net presence that is "politically correct", or reactive to "criticism", is against everything I believe, and only creates a "narcissistic" self-image and an urge to at every time hone that perfect social web image rendering your ability to experience reality encumbered.
I spent, at least, some thirty years in schools of different sorts, probably more. I studied various different subjects, and as I score high in agreeability I have actually taken more credit units for friends than for myself which added to the mental model that my mind maintains long term.
Almost all of my "reactive" writing is when my cognitive me finds "stenches" in statements that "everybody knows to be true". Bigotry, gender wars and politics tend to be full of persuasive "half-truths" whose purpose is to recruit you for a cause or help you defend the cause. It was far more exciting thinking earth was flat when you were alone than today and contrary to what we believe human has evolved to believe what everyone thinks is true, more than discovering the actual truth. Truth, therefore, has no absolute evolutionary value, as it is derived from our behaviour as a society or group.
Listening is one of the hardest things I know. The average time for me to hear is about two weeks and often requires to go through some sort of cognitive dissonance where both ability to battle cognitive dissonance and recognize cognitive dissonance is paramount. Also, a man is not defined by his last opinion or action, but by his lifetime of deeds. A more open, and less life-depending relation to what comes out of your-own mouth often generates a healthy debate that forwards you in your thinking.
Nobody has ever made me evolve by agreeing with me. The more painful it is to realize you are wrong, the further you leap in your quest to minimize the distance between your mental-model-of-reality and the actual-reality.
I am not a believer in "the one with most toys, wins", but I do believe in "The one with the most 'facts', that correlate with reality, when they die wins". At least that is what I tell myself when wasting my time when writing for "no one".
And that is what I do, I write for "no one". Writing just turned out to be one way to prune my mental model, to better resemble reality.
That is the "me", the whom you meet through my writing. Or at least that is what I currently "think" I am doing. I might however change my mind any second, as I am human and that is what we do, we evolve and with that our opinions.